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I would like more and more writers, poets, film makers to steal as much as they can, because truth is not my property, I am not its owner. let it reach in any way, in anybody's name, in any form, but let it reach. Beyond Psychology#3 Q#2 : Osho

If you really want to know who I am, you have to be as absolutely empty as I am. Then two mirrors will be facing each other, and only emptiness will be mirrored: two mirrors facing each other. But if you have some idea, then you will see your own idea in me."

"Only that which cannot be taken away by death is real. Everything else is unreal, it is made of the same stuff dreams are made of." ~OSHO♥

Wednesday, 29 February 2012

When life taking us NowHere....

 "When life is taking us nowhere, it begins to have meaning." -Gurdjieff

Monday, 20 February 2012


 YOU WILL NOT LOSE CONTACT, DON'T BE WORRIED AT ALL! I will be coming with you, following you. You will find me always very close to you. Yes, sometimes you can chit chat with me. And if sometimes the idea arises to have a little dialog with me, don't feel that it is crazy. Let the dialog happen and YOU WILL BE SURPRISED that your questions are answered in the same way that I am answering here. They will be answered from your own deepest recesses of being, they will be answered by your own center. The questions come from the circumference and the answers come from the center.

In the beginning they will look as if I am answering you. But sooner or later, YOU WILL DISCOVER THAT THEY ARE BEING ANSWERED BY YOUR OWN REAL SELF. The Master represents only your real self. He speaks to you only to provoke the sleeping center of your being. Once the center is awake, the Master become silent with the disciple.


Sunday, 19 February 2012

Existence - Non Existence are entangled...

Question: Master i find myself in a very strange situation since few days...
no logic is working.. no reasoning...

...I've been asking strange question to myself..
questions like.. 
why was i born in the first place... 
if there is a god or whatever.. 
why wasn't i ask in the first place.. 
what kind of God is that.. 
that who forced birth to me..

and then I realize unless I totally negate all this crap.. 
that there's a god and all that.. i might just go nuts..."

questions like.. why meditate.. why get enlightened...
i mean words are simply loosing its sense to me...
and sometime back i asked myself..what about this man (that's u) .. u love him?

and i replied..  I don't know whether it's love or whatever that's called..
but i feel good to be in a communion with him...
and i give a fuck to any god whereever he s/he may be..
if there has to be any god.. then u r my god.. in the sense.. u cared for me..
so far u have tried to show me the way.. although i don't know where that road leads or takes me to... it's another thing perhaps i am unable to comprehend ur message in totality..

I've never had so much of suicidal thoughts as recently.. but then something tells me.. what's the point even if u die...

Everything is seeming to be senseless to me.. but having no other choice.. i am just trying to live this life.. in the best way i can.. even when i think of suicide... i happen to think of my mom.. that i am the only son.. and if i go.. i know how much they are gonna suffer unnecessarily..

I am sorry for sharing all these zig-zag thoughts master...I just felt to write.. so i jotted them ....

Answer: Beloved Musalam please be a bit more patient with me, because I didn't responded immediately to your thoughts... But most importantly, have more patience and compassion for yourself...
Learn to give more time to your thoughts, so they can mature... I, not having the oppoturnity to share my thoughts with Osho, I used to write them down, so I was relieved from their load or, when they were to much to just be written flat, they were becoming poetry...

Do you remember?  On the 12th Feb 2012 you wrote...

"master since last month a certain silence is pulling me in...."

...and I said: "accept and surrender to it... You're blessed..."

So, at the 16th you come like, "master i find myself in a very strange situation since few logic is working.. no reasoning..."

See?! The mind couldn't afford the silence and became anxious and started philosophising!

..."i've been asking strange question to myself..questions like.. why was i born in the first place... if there is a god or whatever.. why wasn't i ask in the first place.. what kind of God is that.. that who forced birth to me.."
and then I realize unless I totally negate all this crap.. that there's a god and all that.. i might just go nuts..."

Yes, one can get nuts, because all those questions are beyond the reach of the mind... And the trick is that in all those questions TIME is involved, that;s the fucking trick! You see mind creates an virtual enviroment consisting of the concept of time and then tries to fit everything in it! Time is usfull for trivia but not for existential matters...

The mind is trapped by its own cleverness...

In trivia, for our convinience, we can say that something happens and we can see the reason, we can determine the series of events, because they occur in a straight line...

For example, you drink a whole bottle of whisky and then you become utterly drunk...You knew that before hand, but you wished it to happen for some psychological reasons that were hidden in your unconscious... Next day, you have headache and a bad mood and you take a vow that you will stop drinking, but in the evening, forgetting your vow, you take the booz again...

There is cause and effect when one is unconscious... That's how it is called, "The Law of Cause & Effect"... This is the deterministic theory that ruled human history for milennia...

Modern science of the 20th century discovered, that things are more subtle and strange than they appear... Quantum physicists like Heisenberg and Schrödinger undermined the otherwise convenient mindset of the classic era...

In the famous experiment of the "Schrödinger's Cat", ...a cat, along with a flask containing a poison, is placed in a sealed box shielded against environmentally induced quantum decoherence. If an internal Geiger counter detects radiation, the flask is shattered, releasing the poison that kills the cat. The Copenhagen interpretation of quantum mechanics implies that after a while, the cat is simultaneously alive and dead. Yet, when we look in the box, we see the cat either alive or dead, not a mixture of alive and dead."

After the cat interating with the quantum system, it should get entangled with it and end up in a state of both dead and alive at the same time, which obviously we never see.

Saturday, 18 February 2012


Q: Hello swami ji

Please help me... How to get rid of fear?

Answer: Dear friend,

Death is inevitable... Life is this very moment, if you ride this moment, you never "die"...

Fear ows its existence to the concept of time...

It always comes from undigested experiences of the past, projected into the future...

Living here-now, there is no space for thought nor desire, because desire produces thought and thought produces fear...

An infant doesn't have any fear because it's innocent...

Innocence is the absence of knowledge, knowledge projected into the future becomes either desire or fear... "Unless you become like a child again, you shall not enter to my Kingdom of God", said Jesus...

Living in the moment, the past is no more, knowledge is absent, so desire or fear simply do not exist, future also ceases to exist...

If there is no future, what is there ti be afraid of?

This is the only death possible, the death of ego...

Ego means the continuity of your idea of being in time, having a past and a future...

Existence not fully lived feels empty, dead, and non-existence is confused as death...

Be conscious and you'll never die...

Life is Real only then when i Am...

~Anand Sarmad

Wednesday, 15 February 2012

Let’s Play The Game Of Love

 How can i know that a woman loves me in reality, and is not playing games?

    This is difficult! Nobody has ever been able to know it – because, love is a game. That is its reality! So if you are waiting, watching, thinking and analysing whether the woman is just playing a game, you will never be able to love any woman – because love is a game, the suprememost game.

    Why ask for it to be real? Play the game! That’s its reality. And if you are too much of a seeker for reality, then love is not for you. It is a dream! It is a fantasy. It is fiction, romance, it is poetry. If you are too much of a seeker for reality, obsessed with reality, then, love is not for you; then you meditate.

    There is no way to judge. We are such strangers and our meeting is just accidental. Suddenly we have come across each other, not knowing who we are, not knowing who the other is. Two strangers meeting on a road, feeling alone, hold each other’s hands and think they are in love. They are in need of the other, certainly, but is this love?

    People feel lonely; they need somebody to fill their loneliness. They call it love. They show love because that is the only way to hook the other. The other also calls it love because that is the only way to hook you. But who knows whether there is love or not? Real love happens only when you don’t need anybody; that’s the difficulty.

    That’s how banks function. If you go to a bank and you need money, they will not give you any. If you don’t need money, you have enough, they will come to you and they will always be ready to give you.

    When you don’t need a person at all, when you are totally sufficient unto yourself, when you can be alone and tremendously happy and ecstatic, then love is possible. But even then you cannot be certain whether the other’s love is real or not.

    You can be certain about only one thing: whether your love is real. How can you be certain about the other? But there is no need for this constant anxiety. If you agonise over whether the other’s love is real or not it shows that your love is not real. Why be worried about it? Enjoy it while it lasts! Be together while you can be together. You need fiction. Nietzsche said man is such that he cannot live without lies, he cannot live with truth. Lies, in a subtle way, lubricate your system. You both are trying to use each other as a means.

    Don’t create anxiety. And try to become more and more awake.

    One day when you are really awake you will be able to love – but then you will be certain about your love only. But that’s enough! Because right now you want to use others. When you are really blissful on your own, you don’t want to use anybody. You simply want to share. You have so much, you are overflowing, you would like somebody to share it. And you will feel thankful that somebody was ready to receive. Finished! That is the full point.

- OSHO, A Sudden Clash of Thunder

Sunday, 12 February 2012

Nayi Hawa - New Breeze / Wind...

What is your life about, anyway?

What is your life about, anyway?
Nothing but a struggle to be someone.
Nothing but a running from your own silence.
Rumi ♥

Saturday, 11 February 2012

Flash Mob Meditation, Amsterdam

Friday, 10 February 2012

Osho’s experiences with Suicide

 Once I was sitting by the side of the Ganges in Allahabad alone, in a very lonely spot, and I saw a man jump into the river. I thought he must be taking a bath, but then he started shouting, "Help! Save me!"--he was drowning.

I don't believe in saving anybody, but I thought that this is a totally different case. So I jumped in after him and I pulled him out. It was hard, he was a very big and fat fellow, but somehow I brought him out. And he started being very angry with me. He said, "Why did you save me?"

I said, "This is something! You were shouting, `Save me, help me!' I am not a person to save anybody, but there was nobody else here, and I thought that this is a totally different context. But why are you getting angry?"

He said, "I was really going to commit suicide."

"Then," I said, "why did you start shouting, `Save me, help me'? You should have committed suicide--I would not have disturbed you. I was simply sitting silently, I was not interfering with you."

He said, "What to do? I wanted to commit suicide, and with a total decisiveness I had jumped in. But when the cold water touched me, I forgot all that, and when I started drowning and came up, I don't know how, but I started shouting, `Help me, save me!'"

I said, "Don't be worried. Come here."

He said, "What do you mean?"

I said, "You just come close to me." He came. I pushed him back into the water. He went under once and started shouting again, "Save me, help me! What are you doing?"

I said, "Now I am not going to be worried. I did wrong the first time--please forgive me for that time. Now I will simply sit here and see you commit suicide."

He said, "This is not"--and it was difficult to say anything because he was going down and up--"This is not a joke! Just save me. I don't want to commit suicide!"

Somebody else jumped in and saved him. I said, "You are doing something wrong because that fellow wants to commit suicide."

And that fellow said, "No, I have dropped the idea. It is too difficult, I will find some easier way. This going under water and coming up--it is too much for me." transm32

Once it happened a friend of mine was bent upon committing suicide, so everybody was advising him but he wouldn't listen.

His father came running to me and he said, "Now it seems it is beyond us". The father had always been against me but now he thought, "Maybe this is the last resort". So I said, "I am coming."

I went and I listened to the man, and I said, "Perfectly good! I don't feel it is right, but if still you decide to commit suicide I will help you because I'm your friend! If you want to commit suicide, good! I don't feel it is right because if I were in your place I wouldn't commit suicide because it looks foolish! Because a girl has refused you, you want to commit suicide. There are millions of girls and this is not the only woman. Within a month you will forget; you will fall in love again! But if you still think to, it is perfectly good! It is your life!"

The father became very much disturbed. He said, "We have brought you to help him not to do it!"

I said, "Who are you to help him?--because when you gave birth to him you never asked him if he wanted to be born or not. Now why should you ask? If he wants to commit suicide he should be given all freedom."

I took the man to my house. I said, "Come with me. If you are going to commit suicide, let us enjoy. One night be with me because maybe we will meet somewhere, maybe we will never meet again."

So he came with me, and by and by he started thinking, because I was not trying to convince him. I said, "We will put the alarm on and at four o'clock I will drive you to a beautiful place where you can jump into the river...and I can say good-bye too!"

At four o'clock when the alarm went and I started pulling him out of his bed, he said, "Are you my enemy or what? I don't want to commit suicide!"

I said, "This is not right. If you have decided it is perfectly good!"

He said, "But I don't want to commit suicide. Why are you forcing me?"

I said, "I'm not forcing!"

And he has not committed suicide! Now he has a wife and children and he avoids me because whenever he comes to see me I say, "What has happened now? You were thinking that you would never fall in love again; you fell in love again!"

And he says, "In fact I am happy that that woman refused; she was not for me! I would have always been in trouble, her husband is in trouble. And I have found a better woman."


Beloved Osho:
Before taking sannyas, I WAS ON THE VERGE OF COMMITTING SUICIDE. Now I am too happy to say, but still I am searching for something I don't know. Osho, after all, what do I want? Please say something.

SANNYAS IS A REAL SUICIDE. You say, "Before taking sannyas, I was on the verge of committing suicide." You have committed it -- and you have committed it on a deeper plane. DESTROYING THE BODY WOULD NOT HAVE HELPED MUCH. You would have been born again in a similar pattern of body, because your mind would have remained the same.

BY COMMITTING SUICIDE, by jumping into a river, or in the ocean, or from a hilltop, YOU CAN DESTROY THE PHYSICAL PART OF YOU. But your physical part is not basic, your mental part is the base. Your mental part carries the blueprint for the physical. Your mind will jump into another womb and will start gathering another physical part. It will be born again.

SUICIDE IS USELESS. I am not against suicide because it is a crime, I am against suicide because it is futile, it is foolish, it is stupid.

IF YOU REALLY WANT TO COMMIT SUICIDE, then become a sannyasin. Then you will be destroying the mind, the deep blueprint for your future lives. That's what Buddha said -- become a srotapanna, enter the stream. Rather than jumping from the cliff, rather than jumping into the ocean and dying a physical death, JUMP INTO A BUDDHA AND DIE A SPIRITUAL DEATH. That's what sannyas is all about -- dying in me. It is carrying your own cross.

IF YOU ARE REALLY FED UP WITH YOUR LIFE, then destroy the very possibility of its being repeated again and again -- become a srotapanna. Then you will become a skridagamin; once more you will come. Then you will become an anagamin; no more you will come.

THE ANAGAMIN IS THE ONE WHO HAS COMMITTED REAL SUICIDE; he never comes back. He is really finished with the world, he has closed his accounts with the world. He has now far better ways of being. He does not come into this mess, he does not descend into this darkness, this ugly hell. He goes on soaring higher and higher towards the very source of light.

You say, "Before taking sannyas, I was on the verge of committing suicide."

In fact, ONLY A PERSON WHO IS ON THE VERGE OF SUICIDE CAN BE A REAL SANNYASIN. When you are really fed up with life, bored with it, looking at its ridiculous absurdity, the vicious circle moving round and round and leading nowhere... WHEN YOU UNDERSTAND THAT NOTHING IS HAPPENING IN IT AND YOU ARE UNNECESSARILY SUFFERING -- you are becoming more and more dark, heavy, weighty, you are losing wings; you are becoming more and more like a dead thing... When you see this -- that life is killing you, not making you really alive -- then two doors open: suicide or sannyas.

Let me tell you, in the East, few people commit suicide. In the West, many more people commit suicide. The eastern people think that they are less suicidal, that's why it is so. Western psychologists think that the western mind is more suicidal, that's why it is so. Neither what the eastern people say, nor what western psychoanalysts say is the truth.

The truth is that in the West, sannyas has disappeared, so whenever one is fed up with life, only one alternative is available -- suicide. In the East, sannyas is as much an alternative as suicide. If you count sannyasins and the persons who commit suicide in the East, then the number will come exactly the same. There will be no difference.

SANNYAS IS A TRANSFORMATION OF LIFE; SUICIDE IS AN ESCAPE FROM LIFE. In both the ways, you go beyond. In both the ways, you get rid of this so-called life. But by suicide, it is only a temporary thing -- again you will be back, again and again you will be back.

WITH SANNYAS, THE DOOR OPENS. You may not come back, or, even if you come, you will come in a better way, more aware. Even if you come, you will come to learn something, to mature.

In the East, the whole concept of growth is to grow out of life, to grow beyond life.

SANNYAS IS CREATIVE, SUICIDE IS DESTRUCTIVE. In suicide, you are simply doing something desperate. In sannyas, you are doing something very deliberate to transform your ways, your very style of life. In fact, it is not with life that you are fed up, IT IS WITH YOUR WAY OF LIFE. It is not really with life that you are fed up -- because in fact you don't know what life is -- but with your pattern of life, THE NARROWING THAT YOU HAVE MADE YOUR LIFE, the tunnel-like phenomenon that you have created out of your life, the imprisonment that you created out of your life.

You don't know what life is, YOU KNOW ONLY A TUNNEL THING -- dark, dirty, confining, crushing, crippling, paralyzing -- AND IN THE END YOU SEE THERE IS NOTHING BUT DEATH. So what is the point of being tortured? Why not commit it today? If it is going to happen tomorrow, then why wait for tomorrow? That is the logic of the suicide.

In fact, people who commit suicide are more intelligent than those who never think about it. Only idiots never commit suicide; only idiots are never bored; only idiots never become aware of the futility of their life...

Intelligent people are bound to think sometimes, 'What is the point of it all? Why am I going? For what? Nothing has happened, nothing seems to happen, nothing can be hoped out of it -- the whole thing seems to be hopeless. Then why go on?' THE SUICIDAL IDEA ARISES BECAUSE OF INTELLIGENCE. So, I say, idiots never think about suicide; intelligent people think about suicide.

BUT THOSE WHO ARE REALLY INTELLIGENT -- not moderately intelligent but at the very peak of their intelligence -- THEY THINK OF SANNYAS. Because they think, 'This whole exists. If I am not able to find the meaning of it, maybe it is my style that is not allowing me to find the meaning of it. If I am not capable of being happy, maybe somewhere I have put conditions which don't allow me to be happy. MAYBE THERE IS ANOTHER WAY TO LIVE.' That 'another way to live', that alternative way to live, is what sannyas is.

'Can't I live non-ambitiously? AMBITIOUSLY I HAVE LIVED AND FOUND MISERY COMES, grows more, becomes intense... suffering and suffering and suffering. I have tried ambition; now let me try non-ambition. Let me have a one hundred and eighty degree turn. Let me be converted.'

CONVERSION MEANS A ONE HUNDRED AND EIGHTY DEGREE TURN, ABOUT-TURN. 'Greed I have tried; now I will try no-greed. Possessiveness I have tried; now I will try sharing. Mind I have tried; now I will try no-mind, meditation. Sex I have tried; now I will try love, compassion.

'I HAVE LIVED IN AN UNNATURAL WAY -- the way the society has forced on me. Now let me try the natural way -- the way of tao, the way of dhamma, the way of rit. I have lived in conflict, struggle, fighting; now let me try surrender, now let me try let-go. I have been trying to go upstream; NOW LET ME TRY GOING DOWNSTREAM, WITH THE STREAM, WHEREVER IT LEADS.' This is what sannyas is.

So, let me repeat. THE MOST STUPID PERSON NEVER THINKS ABOUT SUICIDE. Of course, he cannot even dream about sannyas. He has not that much intelligence to look into the futility of so-called life. In the middle are those intelligent people who become aware that life is futile, but who are not too intelligent to become aware that 'maybe it is just my style, not life itself'. They think of suicide, and they sometimes commit suicide.

Then there are the pinnacles of intelligence -- a Buddha, a Christ, a Lao Tzu, a Zarathustra -- who immediately see the point: 'I AM MISSING BECAUSE MY WAYS ARE WRONG.' And they change their ways. They change their life pattern radically. That radical transformation is sannyas.

I would like to say to you that YOU HAVE REALLY COMMITTED SUICIDE -- and in a better way, in a very intelligent way; the way it should be committed. You have become a sannyasin.

The Discipline of Transcendence
Vol 2, Ch #2: Happy for no reason am in Buddha Hall